Thank you for reviewing FemiCushion. You purchased a lite kit which includes one cushion of each size. Please note that you cannot choose cushion size in kit purchases. The reason why all three cushion sizes are included is because the cushion size depends on many factors. For example, the severity of the prolapse as well as the size of the vaginal opening. Since each individual is different, it is very hard to determine what cushion size is needed unless you have them all on hand to try out. For example, some people think that they need a large cushion since they have severe prolapse, but this is not always the case if their vaginal opening is small. After purchasing a kit, return customers are able to purchase individual components as needed. Now that you know which cushion size you need, you can purchase that size cushion only. As for the holders, they are made with different layers of fabric for strength and absorption. Many customers are able to use the holders in their starter kit many many times before having to purchase replacement one. All of our components are hand made in Japan offering the highest quality. One suggestion we have is to wash the holders by hand or use a laundry net in the washer then hang dry. Again thank you for taking the time to review FemiCushion.